9:49 AM
I'm bored; I'm emo;

Maybe it's my love language? I don't know... I really don't...

5:23 PM
I'm bored; I'm emo;

I had more than once came cross this quote, "Love is staying up all night just to clear your misunderstandings", and always thought it was stupid and not practical, as we all need sleep to cope with the busy lives of ours. That, was till she ended off an argument with "I don't want argue about this anymore, in ur head you must be thinking I avoiding things again... If you dunnid slp I need". Although I kinda understand since it is a week before A levels and sleep is really precious nowadays, it still got me thinking... Does that mean her sleep is more important than our relationship? (Of course I don't mean this one small argument would break apart a relationship, if not the relationship would not be worth a mention.) Sure, we will usually forget about it after a good night's sleep, but do things really end there? Is the problem really solved? Small arguments always lead to small cracks and fractures in the bond, and I believe they will eventually be the root cause of the breakup. This is much similar to the analogy of giant rocks being broken down over time, due to those small cracks and fractures, or joints, that they possess. It is what accumulates that is scary. We should be able to see that we are now more daring to argue with each other, and less willing to admit wrong and apologise. I still remember once, when she got so scared and cried because I sounded enraged as I talked to Adrian over the phone, but now she would just feel irritated if my emotions are not well controlled... We are getting less tolerant to please and appease, and usually after all these, I blame myself for the wrongs I have done, and those irrational impulse I have had, and it never fails to hurt every single time... But then again, maybe this is a better idea than staying up to sort things out after all, as the latter may just lead to greater arguments, and aggravate the situation... I do hope that its all due to stress that I am so hot headed nowadays, and that we are losing patience with stuff... It hurts to reminisce, but it is the only way we would be more understanding of each other once again, as we tasted sweetness before, and we, or at least I, crave sweetness once again...

10:03 AM
I'm bored; I'm emo;

I am too controlled by my own emotions. My brain isn't doing any freaking work.

9:55 PM
I'm bored; I'm emo;

Maybe life would have been better if I had followed the SNSD craze back then...

10:25 AM
I'm bored; I'm emo;

Imagine if I was being all too excited about eg Naruto having a awesome ending, and you just commented something like "You do know they drew up the plot to be like this to get this effect one right?". Shouldn't my comment be like "Yea the producers are awesome.", and continue be happy that I follow the correct thing that entertains me weekly, instead of "You just ruined my mood by telling me these ain't real.".

You do know SNSD are entertainers, and you like how they entertain you. I just stated the fact that they were made to entertain, it's their job to entertain, by saying "You do know the producers planned this for the show right?". Instead you get mad at me for ruining your mood. What is this? This is obvious fact of sinking too much into such stuff. Pull yourself out of it. I am not irritated by you supporting SNSD. I am irritated by how you can be angry at me due to your OBSESSION. It would have been the same for anything else. You too admitted that you would have shook your head in disbelief if it was you seeing those crazy fans in the past. I shouldn't even be wasting energy being mad at you for being mad at me for stupid reasons.

9:09 AM
I'm bored; I'm emo;

What happened that day when I was watching a break dance competition going on at the first storey of Whitesands from outside Zone X , may had been the happiest moment in my life.

9:25 AM
I'm bored; I'm emo;