These questions keep lingering at the back of my mind recently... Will I be fully prepared for the A levels that is coming up in around seven months time? How will my NS life be like due to my recent arm fracture? How will my relationship with that special someone fare as time past by? Maybe the "I don't give a damn" attitude of mine is all a lie. Maybe I am terrified of the uncertainty the near future holds. But for now, all I know is that during the times spent with her, all these troubles seem non-existent. How I wish I can freeze time, to escape reality, to feel so ever carefree...

9:34 AM
I'm bored; I'm emo;

I was walking pass a beautiful apartment that I have passed by quite a few times, but that day I had a sudden extra interest towards it. I walked up to it and knocked on the large wooden gate, and the owner opened it to answer that knock. Closer up, the apartment felt heart-warming, and I could feel the urge to want to be in it. However, it was the first meeting I had with the owner, and of course it would have been weird for me to ask of permission to enter. I know that I fail at expressing myself with words, so I tried means to let the owner know of my intentions, though it all came a bit too obvious as I was nervous. It was to my surprise that even though I was a total stranger, the owner did not ignore me. As I started to blank out, my brain wandered off to admiring the beauty of the apartment. I was not sure about it, but I thought that at a point of time, the owner made some gestures to hint to me that I will be allowed to enter provided that I ask. For quite awhile, I could not find the guts to open my mouth, and I could sense that I was wasting the owner's precious time. Just when I finally picked up the courage to ask, or at least I felt that I did, the owner turned and closed the gate. Guess that even if I asked, all that silence beforehand would have been too awkward for the owner to agree anyways. Now I can only regret, that even though we might say "hi" to each other should we ever meet outside, I will never get to enter that gorgeous apartment of hers.

10:02 AM
I'm bored; I'm emo;

Sorry that I realised too late...

4:57 AM
I'm bored; I'm emo;