Heh kinda gave up on updating my revision progress since my pace is just too damn slow to be worth mentioning :/ It is so slow till the point that the only subject I have studied up till now is maths *OMG PANIC* >< But not bad la this mid years revision have allowed me to find back my love for maths *beams* :)

Ok now about that special her hahahas...
ARGH I AM FREAKING WORRIED FOR HER!!! It's either everybody is unhappy over the matter, or that she has to risk the friendship of a close friend by doing something about it... And it's like really bobian have to choose the latter option soon or else the situation will worsen as compared to what it is already now... Really hope that everything turns out fine...
And I realised I wasn't feeling jealous, but was feeling incompetent instead.... I am usually such a boring person that hardly contributes to conversations, and I suck at cheering people up, but he can so easily make her smile or laugh just by talking on msn... While I am struggling with my studies, another he could help her so much in hers... I am supposed to be the one doing these for her, BUT I CAN'T!

Though I can't do certain things other guys can do for her, I am still happy :) I love how when we don't really talk (I don't think it's that we ran out of things to talk for the day... It's more likely that I didn't contribute again :X), we simply enjoy each other's company :) And I really hope that this feeling will last, that we will never get bored of having each other's company (I don't think I will get bored of a crazy woman... Just scared that she will get bored of a boring person like me :X) :)


I want to always see that smile on her face, and I am willing to do many things for that (yes even starve hahahas :P) 
It warms my heart to make her feel loved :)


OMG I BLOGGED TILL 3.10AM I SHOULD GO TO SLEEP ><

11:56 AM
I'm bored; I'm emo;

10:38 PM
I'm bored; I'm emo;

10:38 PM
I'm bored; I'm emo;

6:54 PM
I'm bored; I'm emo;

11 More days to study till Mid-Years
Maths - 30 Chpts (4 on MI, Binomial, Equalities and Inequalities, Functions, 2 on Graphing, 4 on Vectors, 6 on Differentiation and Integration, 8 on Stats, 3 on Complex)
Done summary up till Binomial
Physics - 20 Chpts
Chem - 26 Chpts

8:24 AM
I'm bored; I'm emo;

(Quoted and Edited)
"Thinking of your ex that meant more to you that anything else did in the world, and realizing that if you had tried harder maybe you two could still be together."
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Apparently, my previous efforts were not enough. I was weak and made the same mistake, but you still chose to forgive me. I don't know what else to say in reply other than "I Love You". However, you've made it clear that there would be no more chances.
I shall try my best, so that we two will always be together.

10:31 AM
I'm bored; I'm emo;

The secret side of me, I never let you see
I keep it caged but I can't control it
So stay away from me, the beast is ugly
I feel the rage and I just can't hold it

It's scratching on the walls, in the closet, in the halls
It comes awake and I can't control it
Hiding under the bed, in my body, in my head
Why won't somebody come and save me from this, make it end?

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
I must confess that I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster

My secret side I keep hid under lock and key
I keep it caged but I can't control it
'Cause if I let him out he'll tear me up, break me down
Why won't somebody come and save me from this, make it end?

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
I must confess that I feel like a monster

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster

It's hiding in the dark, it's teeth are razor sharp
There's no escape for me, it wants my soul, it wants my heart
No one can hear me scream, maybe it's just a dream
Maybe it's inside of me, stop this monster

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
I must confess that I feel like a monster

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I've gotta lose control, he something radical
I must confess that I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster


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Leave me should the threat of this monster becomes too great, because I don't want you to get hurt...

And I do not deserve better, you are the best there is for loving me...

8:55 AM
I'm bored; I'm emo;